I'm in pain and I feel like I could sing! Haha, Yes- I will explain! It's now been 3 1/2 weeks since the surgery and I'm still very much in recovery. This week has been hard because I've still been in a lot of pain and I feel like I'm running out of patience and tolerance to deal with it. I've also been concerned because in my mind I feel like I should be getting through most of the physical recovery by now. And how the ectopic pregnancy played out, I think I'm a bit more prone to fear when it comes to pain in my abdomen. So because of it I have been worried all week whether or not the pain that I'm still having is completely normal, or if there were other complications causing it. BUT, I just heard back from my doctor who assured me that I very easily could be in pain for 6 weeks. My response sounding something like a kid in a candy store. After I hung up, I literally laughed out loud at myself for getting so excited and happy to hear that! Knowing its ok and expected makes dealing with it so much more manageable! I will be ok, my body is simply dealing with the stress that its been through the last few months, including a major surgery. I'm just so ready for a time of rest.
I'm such a kind of person that loves list and LOVES checking off things from that list. The Lord is working in me.. I have no other choice then to just wait. This isn't something that I can quickly get done or get over...
I've been enjoying sitting in the garden with James as he works (again, I wish I could be bending down there getting dirty myself.) We have Tomatoes, Peppers, Eggplant, Tomatillos, Lettuce, Onions, Cabbages, Beans, Carrots, Pea's, Strawberry's, (with baby berries!) Asparagus bed (which we just planted this year) and Raspberry bushes. We're going to plant Cucumbers, Squash and Watermellon tomorrow. It's so good to finally have warm temperatures for both me and the garden to enjoy.
Last weekend we had some friends come over to help us get some work done and they laid newspaper and mulched leaves down in the walkways to keep weeds down! What a blessing!
My heart has been a little heavy with the reminders coming from everywhere of Mother's Day this weekend. I so wish I had my Eternity Grace to celebrate being a mom. I will be sending up extra special prayers for all those who don't have there child(ren) with them this weekend. May Jesus' comfort that's like no others be with you all!
Blessings and love,
Julie
